I’ll always remember the las night that I held you.
I was broken and tired, living void of you.
My fingertips are numb.
I’ve got no more air in my lungs.
Two breaths from passing out, I drove to you.
It’s 2am.
I just needed to.
You’re angry and tired.
You don’t want me there.
As you fall asleep, I just watch you and stroke your hair for the last time.
One of us wants it and one of us doesn’t.
If I could have fixed it, then I would have done it.
I still would.
“This is too hard”, she says, out of strength.
“This is too hard”, she says.
Now I think…
This is the hardest thing I’ll ever do.
Lord knows, I don’t want to do it.
I am forced to go through it.
I’m pacing and spinning while lost in the misdirect.
I don’t eat in the morning.
I am sick.
My fingertips are numb.
I’ve got no more air in my lungs.
Two weeks.
No going out.
I think of you.
I can’t sleep. I just dream of you.
I remember a time when you belonged there.
In a couple of weeks, I will see you.
I will stare for the last time.
Oncoming traffic, headlights, then it hits.
I see your face, then I swerve, then the accident.
“This is your fault”, They said.
Lose my strength.
“This is your fault”, They said.
I can’t think.
This is the hardest thing I’ll ever do.
Lord knows, I don’t want to do it.
I am forced to go through it.
Think of our time.
Filling your heart.
You, filling mine.
I’ve lost my strength, lost my mind.
I’ve lost my will to survive.
Think of the way that I’ll always feel.
Think of my accident.
Think of the windshield.
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